Hello friends, I’m still here, unbelievable haha.
So, I’m very happy to share with you again the thoughts I had lately.🤗
Though it’s very hard for me to read,
and type on my iPhone, but with patience I can do it.

On Wednesday, 24 June,
it was my 39th birthday.
My birthday wishes came true,
In the morning, we had a Nussschnecke (nut pastry) from bakery Meier and enjoyed the Earl Grey tea.
It’s the same wish as I had 3 years ago.
My wishes just simply came true!
Do you know that I had lost my ability to swallow after biopsy,
but, then it recovered a week before my 36th birthday.
Did you know Bakery Meier had stopped selling Nussschnecke, but they just specially made it for my birthday?
I was Pharrell happy, beyond blessed, and left speechless. 😃🥰

I always follow the COVID-19 pandemic.
As per today, it has already affected 213 countries, more than 9.5 million people, and taken more than 520.000 lives.

It ripped my heart,
to hear every morning the news,
we fight together this pandemic,
but people still harm others,
terrorism is still happening,
riots are still happening,
extremism is still happening,
genocides are still happening,
racism is still happening,
and so on.
People are just selfish.
I don’t want to hear the morning news anymore.
It breaks my heart.


I spend most of my time sitting on the sofa,
As Tobias is working, I reflect about life.
I found out, it is about

I found out that God has created me beautifully perfect,
He restored my wholeness.
He gave me identity as His heiress and daughter.
He gave me hope,
He forgives me,
He overcame my unworthiness.
He gave me a promise of eternity.
He gave Himself for me.

He gave me a meaning to my life,
He gave me a purpose to fulfill,
to tell you that you’re loved.

He also brought Tobias to my life.
He made sure I will never feel alone.
He made sure I won’t face DIPG by myself,
Tobias loves me and gives his life for me.

BEING LOVED is the most beautiful thing,
the best thing that ever happened,
in my life.


Love gives,
that simple.
It doesn’t matter who you are,
or what you’ve done,
love gives.

Maybe your time,
maybe your attention,
maybe your affection,
maybe your treasure,
maybe your patience,
maybe your understanding,
maybe your smile,
maybe your kindness,
maybe listening to others,
maybe sharing your bread,
and so on.

Love is only expressed through giving.
If there is no giving,
there is no evidence that love exists.

so many people around us,
are like dead-men walking.
They forget,
that they’re valued,
that they’re loved.

They forget,
to take delights in giving,
they forget,
to feel what is joy.

They only see disappointments,
they only see distress and pain,
they only focus on what they lost,
they only focus on what they don’t have,
they only see that they’re losing hope,
they’re forget to be grateful,
they forget what matters in life,
they forget that they’re loved.

let’s remind them,
that there is peace,
that there is joy and hope,
that they are valued,
that they are loved.


Check this out:

“A new commandment I give to you, that you love one another: just as I have loved you, you also are to love one another. By this all people will know that you are my disciples, if you have love for one another.””
‭‭John‬ ‭13:34-35‬ ‭ESV‬‬

“Beloved, let us love one another, for love is from God, and whoever loves has been born of God and knows God. Anyone who does not love does not know God, because God is love. In this the love of God was made manifest among us, that God sent his only Son into the world, so that we might live through him.”
‭‭1 John‬ ‭4:7-9‬ ‭ESV‬‬

“”For God so loved the world, that he gave his only Son, that whoever believes in him should not perish but have eternal life. ”
‭‭John‬ ‭3:16 ESV‬‬

3 Years 1 month Post Biopsy
Midline Pontine Glioblastoma/DIPG Grade IV

Now, I have palliative care.
No further treatment is available for me.
I have an oxygen bottle ready at home in case I need it.

I have no oncologist anymore.
But my resident doctor came on Monday and checked me out and today my palliative care doctor came to pay me a long visit.

I am getting worse rapidly, day by day.
Following the advice of my doctors, I decreased dexamethasone to 18 mg daily. 6 mg after breakfast (9 am), 6 mg after lunch (12 am), 6 mg after coffee (3 pm).

It doesn’t slow down my symptoms from worsening.

Everyday I have to deal with the feeling as if my head is in a cloud,
Tobias brings me to the toilet whenever I need,
he moves my body according to what I want,
he sits me up straight on the sofa,
he sits me up early in the morning so I can breathe,
he showers me in the morning,
he creams my body after showering,
he prepares breakfast, lunch, coffee, and dinner,
he knows I drink my tea with honey,
I communicate with Tobias mostly by typing on my phone or by pointing fingers.
I keep asking him for eye drops all the time,
I have severe head pressure,
I have severe double vision,
I deal with tingling pain 24/7,
I no longer can speak,
I need help with everything.
I lost all my functions.

Tobias hugs and kisses me a lot,
he shows affection to me a lot,
he knows that watching our birds,
feeding the ducks 🦆,
makes me extremely happy,
I love you, my Tobias ♥️.

Please go to “My Medical History” for more details.

Thanks for keeping us in your prayers 🙏

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Saturday morning routine, bakery Meier 🤗
Saturday morning routine, eat Seele 🥖🥨
Sunday back to Müsli or porridge with lots of berries 😂
I love feeding ducks 🦆
Ducks 🦆
The Maiers ♥️
Hello 👋
Whenever he’s free he brings me to ducks 🦆
a Schlossgarten close to home 🏡
Brother of Tobias visited us.
Tobias showed off his asian cooking skills 👨‍🍳 😂
Impressive 👍♥️
Monday breakfast porridge with lots of berries, as usual
Another park close to home 🏡
Of course, feeding the ducks 🦆 again
You see the little one?
Feeding ducks 🦆
My favorite and makes me happy 😃
I have collections of porridge and Müsli 😂
Mango maracuja porridge
Mohn vanili porridge
plum cinnamon apple porridge
almond fruits Müsli
ovaltino Müsli
Yeah, we’re cereal killers
Lately Tobias is busy with seminars and workshops.
So I just hide behind the green screen la .
And listen to them 😝
When he’s busy, we cooked pasta. 🍝
I love ❤️ pasta pesto
Feeding ducks 🦆 again
Whenever we have time 😆
Pharrell happy 😊
Look 👀 little one 🦆
Always close to mommy
I got my nut pastry for my birthday 🍰
My birthday wishes came true!
I was beyond blessed and loved ♥️😊👍
My birthday 39th.
Speechless, so many good things in my life ♥️😘
Thanks Tobias ♥️😘
Everyday you makes me laugh, smile and happy 😊.

And , friends I got so many uplifting, encouraging, heartwarming birthday messages from you ♥️😊😘
Never in my life got so many blessings.
It made me happy 😃.
Thank you so much friends ♥️😊😘
Nussch/ nut pastry 🥜
my favorite
😋 🤤
My birthday morning’s 😊
I got a lot of gifts, Honig 🍯
The Maiers ♥️
I am loved 😘
Feeding ducks 🦆 again on my birthday 😂
Why not?
You want to join me? 😂
Today’s morning 😊


  1. Tobias & the bakery are simply amazing. Now, that was a birthday gift that is priceless & I am so happy that you are blessed with such true love Titien. I’m always thinking of you & sending so many prayers & hugs always. Thank you for sharing your birthday with us♥️

    1. Hi Karen,
      Yep, I’m speechless. I am beyond blessed and so happy. Btw, I love the nussschnecke ♥️👍. Thanks Karen 😊♥️
      Love, Titien

  2. I recently stumbled across this blog, but your writing has moved me deeply. Today’s world allowed me to be content simply treading water, but your outlook and appreciation of life has truly changed how I view my own existence.

    Happy birthday, and best wishes to you + Tobias!

    P.S. I’m excited to look through your recipes! Cheers!

    1. Hi John,
      Thank you for your birthday wishes 😊♥️
      Haha, you have to recook my recipe. Start with egg rice 🍚😂👍
      Thank you 😋♥️😂
      Have a wonderful weekend 🤗
      Love, Titien

  3. Happiest birthday Titien!!! I’ve shared your blog to several friends and it’s like many have said, uplifting and full of gratefulness, joy and hope. Amidst all that you experience you give us, those who know you well and those who’ve never met you, a real view of a child of Christ. Love you and love your expressions through words. May your new year of life be enriched with new dreams and surprises and yummy pastures. 😍😍😍👍

    1. Thanks Joyce ♥️😊
      Thanks for sharing my stories, it made me glad my stories inspires others.
      Thanks for loving me ♥️🤗
      And yes, I love nut pastries 😂
      Thanks 😊
      Keep shining, happy and healthy ♥️
      Love, Titien

  4. I want to wish you a happy belated birthday! I’m so glad so many of your favorite things happened that day. You are in my thoughts and prayers often. I appreciate your blog so much.

    1. Thanks Hillary ♥️😊
      Love 💗 my nut pastry 😂
      Thanks for remember us in Your prayer
      Have a wonderful weekend,

  5. Hi Titien
    I’m always deeply moved by your thoughts about God’s love for us humans and by the unconditional love between Tobias and you. You two are so amazing – you endure so much without complaint.
    By the way, Tobias and the bakery did a marvellous job with the Nussschnecken on your birthday.😊😊😊 Tobias’ brother coming to see you must have been a pleasant surprise. You can easily see the similarity between them.
    I’m thinking of you and Tobias every day and wish you sunny and happy moments notwithstanding the distressing circumstances.
    Hugs and prayers

    1. Hi Elisabeth,
      They’re look alike 😆 brothers indeed 😂
      Yep, I love love Nussschnecke,
      But they only made in my birthday 🍰
      It’s ok la, I got to enjoy them 😆 yummy
      Thanks ja ♥️😊
      Have a wonderful weekend!
      Love ❤️

  6. Dear Titien.

    I am finally caught up with your blog! I have been determined to read every word from you, since the beginning, to the now.

    So I am a first time poster on here. On Facebook we are already feeding ducks with tails and sharing a love of all that is hot and spicy 🌶

    I want to thank you for your deeply intimate sharing of your journey and I want to say how much your writing has inspired me to become a better, more happy, calm and selfless person. I am not there yet but you inspire me EVERY day! I feel like I know you and I sincerely wish with all my heart that I could know you, in person.

    Words are not enough Titien. I cannot express what i have felt and experienced, as you have taken me through your journey. I can only thank you and praise your courage.

    Things I especially like! Holger from the sink! Titiens Kitchen! Tobias rare postings ( he is a rare, honest and precious soul). Photos of your life experiences! But most of all, your wry and wickedly clever sense of humour! You have many gifts beautiful Titien.

    I hope it’s ok to say that I love you ❤

    Emily from New Zealand x

    1. Thanks Emily ♥️
      Feeding ducks with tails 😂
      Ah you must join me.
      Thank you for feeling we know each other 😆
      And yeah let’s recooked my recipes.
      Tobias is now an Asian chef 👨‍🍳 Profi
      Have a wonderful weekend Emily
      Enjoy summer 🐝
      Love you too 😘

  7. My husband’s birthday is also on the 24th of June & I commented I was excited to celebrate him, he said why? It’s only 41 and I replied, some people will never see this age, I’m grateful you did and I’m happy to share it with you. You have reminded me to celebrate EVERY day not just birthdays. Look for more joy, more happiness, more contentment. God has got you sister. Thank you for being brave enough to share your story.

    1. Happy birthday 🎈🎉
      Thank you for travel my stories.
      I’m very happy that you feel happy and content and loved.
      Keep shining.
      Have a wonderful summer
      Love ❤️ Titien

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