why are You so far from my cries?
I’m crying out by day and night.
I don’t find any rest.
Why You don’t answer?
the German Embassy in Jakarta was heartless
and refused to grant a year visa to my parents.
when people are staring and laughing at me.
DIPG warriors I know are dying and one-by-one is passing away.
of all the treatments and uncomfortable side effects.
DIPG pinned my arms and legs,
chained my neck,
pulled apart every joint in my body.
My strength is dried up.
I feel discouraged.
me and my fellow DIPG warriors,
we are on the dust of death.
I feel misaligned and distorted,
Your goodness and our sufferings,
Your mercy and our pain.
We’re climbing a rock wall,
we’re slipping and losing our foothold.
feels like I’m falling apart.
No coherence and cohesion,
in my mind and my heart.
Image of anxiety and anger,
isolation, pain and grief.
I have no vitality, no vigor.
I can’t hold it together anymore.
don’t be far!
You have created me,
You have made me trust in You.
You have been my God.
You’ve always cared about me.
You’re my strength,
come quickly to help me,
comfort and strengthen me.
You never put to shame,
those who trusted in You.
You have proven Your faithfulness.
Do it again, LORD.
I have witnessed Your grace and mercy.
You never scorned the suffering of Your children.
You never hidden Your face from me.
You have listened to my cry.
You have recorded my misery,
collected my tears.
I flung to You.
I will be still,
in Your sanctuary.
I will come out the dark night of my soul.
From You comes the theme of my praise.
Wether I’ll see answer in life or in death.
I put my trust in You.
My savior, LORD Jesus,
Your life, death and resurrection has identified with me.
I will forever proclaim
You are a good Father,
who loves us,
who is here with us.