Merry Christmas!πŸŽ„

This year Christmas was special because it’s my first Christmas with my husband, in Chemo, and because the meaning of Christmas for me now is different than before.

Lately I was losing my confidence. I lost a lot of hair, that I can see my scalp, dry scalp skin. My face looks different, my crossed eyes. I miss me before DIPG.

This feeling also makes me lower myself value. I felt I am not beautiful for my husband to be proud of. I wanted to give the best for my love one.

Good friends reminded me that I am still the same Titien they know. My husband also said the same, and never show less love. But still I keep looking to my physical condition, and this makes me sad and lost confident.


On Facebook I read many lovely Christmas wishes, and the meaning of Christmas.

In reality, in this holiday season I saw happy families gathering; broken families struggling; families lost their loved ones; parents make efforts and not appreciated by their kids; children got abandoned; got diagnosed with terminal illness; etc. Every individual have their own black and white Christmas story.

I remember few years back, Christmas for me was a shicky micky cocktail dress, parties, exchange gifts.

This time was different. Not because of DIPG change me physically, but more than that, I see the different meaning of Christmas. I realize or remember that my worth is in Christ. He has redeemed me from eternal death and made me to be co heirs with Jesus! I am more precious than gold or silver, much more beautiful than rubies and precious stones.

Proverbs 31:10 A wife of noble character who can find? She is worth far more than rubies.


Christmas is identical with gifts. If you ask me what I want for Christmas, it will be God enable me to shine people surround me with love and blessings.

Loving kindness and forgiveness are the best gifts. A hug for a mom who cooked the whole day for Christmas dinner and not appreciated by her kids, a forgiveness to restore the hateful broken hearted siblings, a shoulder to cry for those who lost their loved ones, time to spend with those who are fighting serious illness, a kindness big heart that warm a cold grumpy heart, a phone call to an old relatives, a cheers for new moms, etc. Christmas is more meaningful.

I hope you, especially cancer warriors, no matter how we look, no matter how painful, no matter in what condition, know this: you and me are precious and beautiful, and be confident that we have so much value in Christ. You’re in my thought and prayer.

Love and hugs,

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