when I post this,
it means it’s my time to say goodbye to you.
I am already with my Heavenly Father.


you made me,
the luckiest wife,
the happiest woman in the world.
I am loved unconditionally by you.

My love, Tobias,
you’re an amazing man,
thank you for calling me ‘honig’,
thank you for non stop hugging and kissing me,
thank you for every morning told me “you’re beautiful”,
thank you for showing me a lot of affections to me,
thank you for selfless things you’ve done for me,
thank you for your phenomenal positivity,
thank you for being strong for me,
You’re the person who can make me smile everyday during the roughest of time.
Thank you for sharing this beautiful mess together,
thank you for your unwavering love.
I love you ♥️.


I never met most of you,
I only know you online on Facebook,
DIPG connected us,
I couldn’t recount the myriad of ways,
you have delighted me,
you have encouraged me,
you have heart warmed me,
through your prayer,
through your thoughts,
through your kind comments,
you have lift me up!


When I see God in my life,
tears of gratitude dropped down my face.
I have my dreams came true.
I outlived 3 years happily,
my life was blessed abundantly.

God sent me a true love, Tobias, ♥️😊
to overwhelmed me with love,
He sent me friends so I don’t feel lonely,
He sent me birds everyday to my balcony to cheer me,
He doesn’t let me face trials beyond that I can handle,
He gave me a purpose to shared my stories and to tell you that you’re loved,
and He’s here with me through it all.
Oh, you’re free to share my stories anytime 😊♥️


My love, Tobias,
my dear family, 
my friends.

I have to say,
I am LOVED. ♥️🤗

Thank you so much for loving me.
I love you. 
Remember me whenever you see or eat chili 🌶.
Till we meet again in Heaven! 

your Titien.


My Heavenly Father,
Your mercies are new every morning,
Your loving kindness endures forever,
Your promises are yes and amen,
You never leave them,
nothing can separate them from Your love,
help them not only see the disappointments,
not only see sorrows and pains,
not only see what they don’t have,
but let them see the hope,
let them see the peace,
let them see the victory,
let them see the goodness,
let them see what matters in life,
help them be grateful,
help them feel joy,
Because I know You love them.

your Titien.

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My everything ♥️

37 Replies to “GOODBYE, MY FRIENDS!”

    1. Dearest Titien and Thobias,

      Thank you for sharing your story.
      Thank you for making me believe that true love is exist .
      Thank you for showing me what the strength is .
      Thank you for teaching me what faith is

      Thank you to make me understand about HOPE, FAITH and LOVE.

      “Three things will last forever–faith, hope, and love–and the greatest of these is love.” Corinthians 13:13,

      My pray for both of you,
      My deepest condolences for you Thobias🙏🙏

      1. Godspeed Titien. I will miss your inspiring posts.
        Tobias, I hold you and Titien’s family in love and prayer. Please be gentle with yourself during this difficult time. Please keep us posted on how you are doing.

  1. My condolences to you, Tobias. It is so heartbreaking. But she is with God and Jesus now and in heaven she is pain free and healthy again. Now, in heaven, she has beat cancer. My birthday is comming up and I created a donation cause on Facebook for the Defeat DIPG foundation. I did this in honor of Titien and I hope one day a cure is found and no child or adult has to die from it anymore. Stay strong, Tobias. You are in my prayers. I will never forget Titien.

  2. My sincere condolences, Tobias. As a believer, I do believe our Lord has welcomed Titien back to heavenly home with greatest comfort. Titien is a strong warrior walking in faith with God, and she has encouraged some many of us without a doubt. We will pray for your being testimony of having observed what God has achieved in your lives as a couple, and flowing the love to all those around you.

  3. Titien is in heaven with God now😇

    Tobias, thank you for being the greatest husband ever. We could see how much love you have for Titien. May God pours out strength, power and joy for you in this time. We pray for you and we love you💕

    Both of you are great examples of love and faith for all of us

  4. My sincere condolences to you Tobias and the family.

    Those Who Died in Christ

    13 But we do not want you to be uninformed, brethren, about those who are asleep, so that you will not grieve as do the rest who have no hope. 14 For if we believe that Jesus died and rose again, even so God will bring with Him those who have fallen asleep in Jesus. 15 For this we say to you by the word of the Lord, that we who are alive and remain until the coming of the Lord, will not precede those who have fallen asleep. 16 For the Lord Himself will descend from heaven with a shout, with the voice of the archangel and with the trumpet of God, and the dead in Christ will rise first. 17 Then we who are alive and remain will be caught up together with them in the clouds to meet the Lord in the air, and so we shall always be with the Lord. 18 Therefore comfort one another with these words.
    1 Thessalonians 4:13-18

  5. Sleep in peace, dear Titien. Our chili consumption is quite high, so beware to be thought of numerous times 😉💌

  6. turut berduka sedalam-dalamnya buat saudaraku yang terkasih dalam Kristus. untill we meet in haven, love and pray, yunita dan alfos

  7. My deep condolence to you, Tobias. Thank you for sharing your stories with us und hopefully that these stories could inspire many people in their cloudy times. You guys are wonderful and precious in God’s eyes. I really gratefull that i’ve ever met you guys, eventhough just less than an hour but it was really warm and nice.

  8. Dear Titien,

    I wish you the nicest resting place for your soul. I really learned a lot from you. And you know what, I eat a lot of 🌶️…

  9. Dear Tobias
    Heartfelt condolences to you and Titien’s family on Titien’s death (and many tears of grief for your tremendous loss and for Titien’s and your suffering since her diagnosis in 2017 and especially in the past few months).
    How very thoughtful of Titien to prepare a posthumous message for her many friends and readers of her blog. That is vintage Titien.
    I marvel at how much you and Titien accomplished during your short time together. Titien will always be remembered by her readers and friends as a true believer, a DIPG warrior, a writer, a person with a great sense of humour, and a warm-hearted and infinitely compassionate individual, and you have definitely been the very best husband in the world.
    I am relieved that Titien is now with her Heavenly Father and free from pain, disease and fear of yet another MRT. Jesus said “I am the resurrection and the life. He who believes in me, though he may die, he shall live.” Titien’s suffering is over for ever and she’s safe in the arms of Jesus (just as she was safe in yours throughout your life together).
    Titien, you’ve taught me a lot about love, faith, courage, fortitude in adversity, and dying with dignity. Thank you for ever, dear beautiful Titien.
    Tobias, I hope that your friends and remaining family will uphold you in the coming days, weeks and months of your bereavement, and I also pray that Jesus will take extra special care of both Titien and you.
    Prayers and hugs

  10. Your previous post prepared me for this one. “To be absent from the body is to be present with the Lord”.

    “In my father’s house there are many mansions”. He has prepared a place for Titien.

    Normally I have words but I think I’m just shook.

    Titien, thank you so much for sharing with the world messages from God in such a unique and special way. Thank you for your transparency in your posts. You remind me so so much of myself that it really made me feel like we were friends.

    God put you in all of our lives for a reason. I will go back and read your posts as you wanted. I currently have chilies on my counter. I bought them because of you 😂. I thought if she can have indoor plants so can I. We both know it didn’t work out. They were dying so I put them outside and then boom! They grew like crazy and I have jalapeños and serrano spicy peppers.

    Although you aren’t reading this but it’s comforting to share anyway.

    You are a gem. A ruby. A diamond in the rough. Rare. You were rare Titien and you were blessed to have Tobias and he was blessed to have you. I hope he will update us from time to time.

    Titien, you won’t be forgotten. We will definitely meet one day in heaven. You are free from this world and you have been made whole and healed.

    My prayers will continue daily for Tobias. That God wraps him in his arms. Jesus is also called the great comforter. I pray for strength and the peace of God to cover Tobias.

    In Jesus name, until we meet again, Amen, Amen, and Amen. ♥️

  11. My deep condolences to you and family, Tobias. I am so sad to hear this news.

    I met Titien for the first time in 2009 in Beijing. I called her, Titien Jiejie. We have a similar name with a slightly different spelling. You must be proud of having her as your half soul. She is a smart and nice person.

    May you rest in peace, Jiejie.

    Your Meimei,

  12. The earth is a better place because you were here.
    Now Heaven is a dearer place because you are there.
    Titien, we shall meet again.
    Until then,

  13. Titien has won her battle with DIPG!! She is now healthy again and with our Savior. Tobias, I am praying for comfort, strength and peace during this time. ❤️

    1. Tobias,
      My deepest condolences to you. Thank you for the steadfast, amazing love you showed Titien. What a dear man you are. We are all sending you prayers for peace and solace. As Titien battled this hideous DIPG, you were with her battling each step of the way, caring for her and offering her support, strength and so much love. The two of you had a wonderful friendship and love, and made many good memories together, although tragically short in duration. God bless you now and always.
      It was lovely of Titien to write a good-bye post. She is a gifted writer and her words will live on and encourage many others. Despite the seriousness of what she was writing about and dealing with in life, she could always bring a smile and warm the hearts of her readers, and reminded us to enjoy the simple things in life. Every time I eat 🌶️ or see 🦆I think of Titien and Tobias. You are also a gifted writer and you two were a great complement to each other. May Titien rest in perfect peace. Tobias, I pray for you to be supported, uplifted and wrapped in the love of family and friends as you grieve. God’s love be with you.
      Love from Los Angeles. 🙏❤️🤗

  14. Cici… thank you for your sharing and a good example for me.. and also the reminder of what is the true meaning of life.. deep condolences for Tobias.. i will keep praying for you and family.. God bless u

  15. I am so sorry for your loss. I will continue to keep you in my prayers and ask that God will comfort you and fill you with peace. Thank you for sharing this journey with the world.

  16. Thankyou tobias for taking a good care of my sister.. I remember that day when we meet up with titien few years ago, she is sooo happy to tell us that she will be marry you soon.. Yes you guys are so lucky to have each other… Thankyou tobias, thankyou.. Please be strong for titien.. She is happy with you when she is here in the world, and now we know she is happy too with Heavenly Father and irene our best friend…

    Tien.. Kita udah ucapin tentang perpisahan dari bulan lalu.. Tapi waktu itu beneran blm siap, ga siap, juga merasa ga mau.. Thankyou for coming into my life, Thankyou for introducing God to me, it changed my life… Walaupun u pernah jauh dr Bapa.. Tp skarang u udah kembali ke pelukan Bapa.. Gua tau u pasti baik2 aja..

    Titip salam buat irene yaa.. I miss her so much, and i will miss you so much too.. Love you, love you, and still.. Will love you always ❤

  17. You are indeed free now, Tien, in a better place!
    Thank you for the beautiful legacy you shared with us. God love you beyond words.
    Rest well, Sister!
    Much love ❤️

  18. My sincere condolences to you, Tobias, and to Titien’s and your family and friends. May Titien rest in peace. My heart goes out to you. Lots of love, Olivia

  19. It makes me very sad to hear that Titien has passed away, as your connection was something very special. My deepest condolences to you Tobias and her family. I wish you a lot of strength Tobias. Take good care of yourself. Your connection is an example of deep deep love! Kindest regards Tom

  20. My heart and thoughts are with you And Titian’s family. Rest In Peace dear Titian. I will never forget you. Thank you Tobias for loving her unconditionally. God really did send you to her. ❤️🙏🏻

  21. My heart and thoughts are with you And Titian’s family. Rest In Peace dear Titian. I will never forget you. Thank you Tobias for loving her unconditionally. God really did send you to her. ❤️🙏🏻

  22. Beautiful Titien!!!! Solemn, gracious, and peaceful post. Quiet tears flowing as I read it and finished it overflowing with joy by your example of a miracle-filled life well lived and loved. The family photo summed it up. Dearest Tobias, friends ache with you with deep sorrow for the loss. We will do our best to carry on Titien’s memory and legacy. Thank you for including us in your lives.

  23. I am very sad to read this. We will always love you, Titien. With all your positive thoughts, your strength, your love story and your inspirational posts you will live on in your friends, family and all your readers. Tobi you are truly amazing. There is nothing more important in life than feeling loved and there is no doubt that Titien felt loved always and forever. Thank you both for sharing your life, thoughts, sorrows, happiness,… I hope you can feel the love from everyone and it gives you some comfort. Love, Bettina, Jeff, Ella, Hanna, Madison

  24. Rip Titien..buat keluarga yg di tinggal (Tobias dan keluarga Titien) yg sabar yah..Tuhan memberkati kalian semua.
    Danke jg buat blog yang ada🙏🙏.

  25. Goodbye, Titien. I wish you had more time in the circle of your loved ones. But there’s one thing I’m sure of: you were loved from the heart. Good bless you and Tobias. We’ll meet again on the other side.

  26. Start reading about Titien two weeks ago. Every single post you shared and how both of you dealt with this, has been inspirational. May she rest in peacein heaven.

    Stay strong, Tobias! My thoughts and prayers are with you and the family members in this difficult time.

  27. Titien. You are terribly missed. My whole body reacts to losing you. I can feel Tobias’ love and your love collided into one love and brightens the whole world. There are no enough words to describe how amazing you were or how my heart breaks to losing you. You are the second person that I have lost after my father that gives a big impact to my life outlook. I am grieving. The beautiful thing is I am not alone grieving. I am grieving with so many other people. Our tears resemble our emotions and longing of how much we miss you and how much we love you. You have touched a lot of lives to our core. And for that, thank you. I cannot be more grateful to have met you, befriended you, spent so many years of my younger self with you. I know that you are now in a much better place. I know that heaven is having a big welcome party for you to show you how much they too love you. But for now, let me find comfort in my tears and my tensed body and my bladder mouth talking to you and thinking about you intensely, until when one day, I can learn to live without you on this earth and appreciate the warmth you have given me in my heart. So long, dearest Titien. Until we meet again. And when it happens, I prefer a big welcoming party organized by you. Tobias, I cannot imagine what you are made of. You have given Titien everything but the biggest of it all is yourself and your love. I have learned a lot just by watching you with Titien. And if there is a greater love than yours to her, let me know. I love you as much as I loved Titien. You are part of her and still now. I cannot imagine losing my life partner. I can just hope that you are given strengths and peace and love and care that you deserve. You are, too, so loved by many. Thank you for being who you are.

  28. I’m in tears when I see this title. Titien, you have touched souls deeply around the world. Rest In Peace!

  29. Dearest Titien, Tobias and family,
    What a joy it was knowing you in Beijing. Some of the best times of our lives were together in that place. You brought such joy and laughter to all of us. While I am so sad that you are gone I am rejoicing that you are in Heaven dancing with your Savior! Tobias, our deepest condolences to you and your family. Please let us know if you need anything.
    Love Always,
    Nora Ruggeri

  30. Dearest Titien,
    I’ve been following your journey since April. Although you are no longer on Earth, I’m sure you’re still reading all of these comments from heaven. I will miss your updates and pictures of your cooking , your delicious recipes, and amazing travels. I will also miss you telling us that you are “Pharrell happy”. It’s such a hilarious phrase and I can just visualize you saying that. It makes me smile every time. 🙂 I’m glad that your suffering has ended and that you are now able to be free without limitations. I wish you a blessed and blissful time in heaven.

    Tobias- my condolences to you and everyone that Titien has touched. Though this is Titien’s Journey, you are very much a part of her journey and I hope that you will continue to share with us how you are doing from time to time. You are amazing and your love for Titien is eternal. I wish you comfort during this difficult time and know that a lot of us are thinking about you and are grieving with you. Please take care of yourself and don’t forget to let us know how you are doing.

  31. I am but a stranger to both of you Titien and Tobias, and came to know of this blog through one of my fellowship group member only yesterday. Had been reading non stop from Titien’s first post till her last gdbye. Her faith in God, the love and courage that both of you share facing DIPG together are emotional and inspiring. May Titien Rest in Peace knowing that she had led a loving and fulfilling life and that you, Tobias together with her family will find comfort in her memory and legacy that she left behind- her writings! My very deepest condolences, thoughts and prayers to you, your family and all who love her.

  32. It crazy to think no more posts from you. Today is Friday. God knows and knew when he would call you home before you were born. He knew you’d be pursuing him although he allowed you to make your choices up until you chose him. He was preparing a place for you before you even knew you had a place in heaven. I know you’re whole and at peace and even if you had options to come back you wouldn’t even want too because you are in the presence of the holiest of holys.

    Your posts are so encouraging and a reminder of the love the father has for us. I pray for Tobias and your family daily. I know life is very different now. You aren’t forgotten girl. Rest In Peace. ♥️♥️♥️

  33. Thank you Titien, for sharing your story with us and blessing us all. Thoughts and prayers are with the family during this difficult time. Rest easy ❤️

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