As per today, the COVID-19 pandemic already affected 213 countries, almost 20 million people, and has taken more than 730k lives.
My condolences and deepest sympathy for them.

God wants us to be joyful!
But when we measure it against the suffering we face,
it seems like an impossible thing to do.
How can we rejoice when our child dies?
Or when we lose our job or our health?
Or when we are betrayed by our spouse?
We cannot just ignore these issues,
and put on a fake happiness.
So how can we possibly rejoice always?

We rejoice because:
We recognize the truths,
about Jesus — His life, death, and resurrection.
We see in God’s people,
we see God open people’s eyes,
to accept Jesus when the gospel is preached.

We see God answer our prayers,
for victory over sin,
for help in trials,
and healing from sickness.

We see people maturing in their love,
holiness, and knowledge of God.

We see our friend ‘s holiness,
progress, and joy in the faith,
more than we crave their approval and applause.

We see Jesus has completely delivered us from sin’s penalty,
We eagerly await our Savior to transform our lowly bodies to be like His glorious.

God wants us to rejoice,
because of God’s salvation.
No one and nothing can take our salvation,
knowing that the joy of the LORD is our strength;
knowing that we’re loved unconditionally,
knowing that in all things God works, for the good of those who love Him,
knowing that one day we will inhabit the Heaven,
Knowing that we will see the Lord face to face.

Your Titien

Check this out:

“that according to the riches of his glory he may grant you to be strengthened with power through his Spirit in your inner being, so that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith—that you, being rooted and grounded in love, may have strength to comprehend with all the saints what is the breadth and length and height and depth, and to know the love of Christ that surpasses knowledge, that you may be filled with all the fullness of God.”
‭‭Ephesians‬ ‭3:16-19‬ ‭ESV‬‬


3 Years 4 months Post Biopsy
Pontine Glioblastoma/DIPG Grade IV
Now, Tobias takes care of me completely.
I 100% depend on Tobias, on everything.
I hope miracles happen,
I have asked God,
to allow me at the end of my life,
To have the strength to type and to swallow.
But now it is Tobias taking over and posting my last posts on behalf of me.
I love Tobias so much.
I know I won’t live any longer.
Even though I never met you,
but I have love for you.
I am still on 4 mg – 3,5 mg dexamthasone.
My feeding tube is badly infected. I am taking antibiotics to fight of the germs.
I have trouble swallowing the pills.
I have pain in my belly and in my chest.
I am now taking painkillers throughout the day (novalgin)
I take medicine at night to prevent cramps (diazepam)
No matter what happens,
I trust that Tobias gives himself,
and loves me unconditionally.
I lost all muscular functions by now.
I cannot type or hold the phone anymore.
Yet, inside my head is still the same Titien.
I know ,
I can’t do anything about it.
Just so thankful for Tobias

This morning. Eating is getting more and more difficult.
Sunday morning Weißwurst Breakfast
This is the size and texture of food Titien still manages
Saturday breakfast table with the results of our visit to our favourite bakery
Saturday visit to our favourite bakery.


  1. Tobias, thank you for being there for Titien in such a wonderful way. You are a true blessing for her. It hurts so much to see her feeling weaker and weaker each day. Life is cruel and unfair. She is a young, wonderful, loving and kind woman. She should be healthy, having an amazing life with you and having fun and enjoying life. I am so angry that there is no cure for DIPG and that still so many people have to die from cancer. I keep you and Titien in my prayers. She had to suffer so much already on earth, so I hope, no, I am sure she will have the most beautiful life in heaven. All the best to you both and hugs and love to Titien.

  2. tiba2 inget ayat ini tin..

    I have no greater joy than to hear that my children walk in truth
    3 john 1:4

    proud of you titien & tobias 💕

  3. Titien and Tobias! You know I love the word REJOICE! My name twice 😍and an encouragement from the Lord! Thank you for the post ! I love your writing and your photos. The breakfast table looks soooo yummy and what a pleasure to see you two enjoying your fav baked goods! I am blessed by you!🥳

  4. Dear Titien and Tobias
    It hurts a lot to see and read about the suffering you are going through. Yet each of your posts is also very uplifting because it shows your true love for each other and Titien’s faith in the Lord. May He be with you every second of the day and sustain you.
    I’m happy to see that you are still enjoying ordinary things such as a yummy breakfast and a trip to your favourite baker.
    You’re both utterly amazing and admirable. Tobias, you are a shining example of spousal love and devotion. Titien, although we’ve never met, you have been a wonderful and gentle teacher to me ever since I started reading your blog.
    Prayers for you both

  5. I think it is pretty amazing and inspiring how you two feel joy in the little things such as Titien, when you get to feed the ducks and Tobi, when you help and are there for your Titien, and both of you during your trips to your favorite baker and breakfast every morning, for time and memories you have together,… and how you give joy to others in many ways. You definitely have shown that rejoice is possible despite all the bad things and pain one has to endure. Thank you for that. I will try to teach my children how much joy and strength you can get from joy and gain strength from giving joy to others and how you should be thankful for the good things in life that happen every day as little as they may seem at times.

  6. Hi Titien and Tobias,
    Just wanted to pop in to say hi and thank you for continuing to write your blogs. I always look forward to reading them. Please know that you two are in my thoughts.

    Titien – I love your skirt..very pretty.

    Much ❤️

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